11/16/02
25 of the Craziest Things I've Ever Written
Whew! I went back and looked at some my stream-of-consciousness writing from earlier this year and I just gotta immortalize this stuff. The less stupid parts, I promise. :)
1. "This house [Jon’s grandparents’] is so incredibly nice. Perfect, in fact. I liked that at first, and then I didn’t like it very much, and then I just got over it. Maybe all of life is like that."
2. "Sometimes I wish I could live inside somebody else’s head for a day. But then I don’t – I like being me and if there’s something I don’t like about me, I don’t want to run away from it and be somebody else, I want to change that thing about me."
3. "My mind is pleasantly empty. I’m starting to go to that place where the keys are fuzzy and I don’t really care what I’m writing…maybe it’s the Land of No Punctuation again."
4. "Nobody’s going to read your thoughts (ie, this). This is your thoughts. HELLO I AM YOUR BRAIN, typing with your fingers."
5. "I was thinking earlier that U-Haul sure has a monopoly on the hauling business. ‘The hauling business’? Hehehehe. “May I haul you, sir?”"
6. "Oh beautiful plants wetlands greenery brush and swampland! Blue skies and nice weather! I love the way my fingers dance over the keys."
7. "We cannot always think philosophically. Most of all, we cannot hole ourselves up to do it. There is a life out there, and it will not allow us to ignore it. "
8. "How long is a moment, anyway? Could you call a lifetime a moment?"
9. "I don’t like to wish that things in the past would have been different because it leaves a blank image of “right now.”"
10. "It is when we stop giving ourselves love and affection that we cease to be like the carefree children we so admire."
11. "I have done so many things in my life, and yet I still have as many self-worth issues as the next teenager. I have solo and ensemble medals hanging there, conference medals for swimming, a bow drill there that gave me fire on the first try, gold academic cords and a German student of the year medal hanging right there…all of this, and what’s the use? And yet I would be stripped bare without having achieved those things. Don’t you catch yourself wondering, sometimes, what desirable talents or attributes you have compared with the people who write beautiful poems or compose heart-wrenching music or have beautiful bodies and faces? Will somebody always be “settling” for me?"
12. "I’m almost afraid of these pages, a little…like I’ll run out of things to write. Well, these are your thoughts, right? Have you ever run out of things to think? Hell no. Too many thoughts sometimes. Could stand to ditch a few."
13. "I wonder if I’ll get sick later? Who cares? That’s later. This is now. Stay in it."
14. "I can’t help but laugh at myself sometimes. As if I could change things by worrying about them."
15. "I’ll get a job next year and live like a queen. What means save all my money for scuba and the Tracker School. Hahaha. My two gods…no, I’m not stupid. I don’t believe any love lasts forever. But that doesn’t make it less worthwhile."
16. "Newells. My relatives. I’ll breathe enough secondhand smoke in the next two hours to last me a lifetime and beyond. I’m surprised these people’s lungs don’t just give up and say “Why bother?” They don’t even need AIR anymore – they just metabolize the smoke. Or, as my dad says, they have such dull and meaningless lives that they can’t find anything else to fill the void. I feel sorry for them."
17. "Funny how people’s lives revolve almost entirely around sex. Thus the preoccupation with physical appearance. It’s just a pretense for romance and dating. Hmm. Dammit."
18. "Write the anger on the page, then it’s no longer inside of you."
19. "Shouldn’t they [adults] be wiser for their age? I mean, what have they been doing all their lives? Cooling their heels in Suburbia? Or looking inside themselves for wisdom? Go look at the world and take a wild guess."
20. "They’re trying to pound one last dose of morality into my brain before I go off to college. Little do they know. Muhahahahahahaha!"
21. "Let go of your need for the approval of your peer group, and you will find you have also lost the need to judge them harshly."
22. "We all have battles; this is yours. Smile and confront it."
23. "The beauty of writing is that there really aren’t any rules. There are no boundaries. DAMN those stunted English teachers who smother their students’ creativity by strictly imposing grammar from the beginning. One must write EVERYTHING, in order to salvage the something that captures the wisdom. Don’t expect everything to hit the spot. But write it anyway."
24. "It takes so little to turn a life around. Life is a cycle in all respects – the deeper someone falls into darkness, the closer they come to light. It just takes someone wise enough and strong enough and brave enough to reach across the threshold and pull them back into light."
25. "Why don’t more people understand that all of their problems are the results of their choices?"
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